The Lord is our leader!

I get to see my husband in 4 days, Lord willing. I've prayed so hard. There is a chance that he will not come home due to the objection from another judge, but we both know that God is bigger than that or any "chance". So, we will continue to pray because God is faithful. He cares about the things in our lives. Big and Little!
It's funny, I've waited so long for our family to change like this. I wanted my husband to be the spiritual leader so we can serve God as a family and raise our daughter in the Word. Well, now, my husband is so ready to be the spiritual leader, but because of certain things of the past, I feel like I'm quick to get defensive. I don't like that at all. I'm praying about that. I want to be submissive to my husband, but I want him to also be sensitive to my needs and feelings. We are excited. We are learning how to be together in a whole new way. It's a journey, but one that will be led by the Lord! Praise the Lord!

My nephew is here!

Isaac Alan Akers! He was born on February 14, 2009 at 12:15pm. He was 9 lbs. and 5 oz. and 22 inches long. I thought I had the bigger baby! He's so precious! He has jaundice and is home but has a light with him 23/24 hours. He's doing well with breastfeeding, too. I was worried b/c my sister in law tried with her daughter but was not successful. Things are going well.

God is so good!

Wow! My heart is so full right now. I received some news today that wasn't so encouraging. Actually, it struck fear in my heart along with my husbands. I immediately got out The Word of God and read and prayed and cried. It's amazing how crying can help you feel better. I am learning to trust God with things that I usually spaz out about. It's hard, but God is so much bigger than my unbelief. It's amazing! I testified in church Sunday night about finally understanding what God was doing when my husband had to leave. I felt so small to even think that I knew better than He did about my situation. My husband is due home this coming Monday, the 23rd of Feb. We were told today that there is a chance that he won't be. So, of course, being a wife that severely misses her husband, freaked out and started bawling. Immediately, I realized what I needed to do. I prayed. I prayed so hard but it was a different kind of prayer. I prayed that God's will will be known to us. And that we would not pray for this and that but for God's will to be done. Also, my husband and I are learning all over again how to be husband and wife with God as the center of our relationship. It's so wonderful! He said something to me today that just melted my heart and again, I bawled like a baby! God is working in my family like he never has before and for that, I am extremely thankful!

Help...I need baby advice.

I wish I had more time to write in this thing. I think we are getting a laptop with taxes. I hope so, that will also help with my teaching assignments. Right now, I am battling with housework. My back feels like it's breaking all the time. I didn't do anything to hurt it, at least, I don't think I did. My sister in law is due with her baby in 15 days so we are trying to get her house all baby-prepped. She's getting overwhelmed which is completely understandable. This is her second child. She has a 8 year old girl, Morgan and this will be Isaac Alan Akers. Say that 3 times fast.
I am a little frustrated at my inability to stop Kara from wanting to smack in the face. She seems to do it when she's excited, but I don't want her to pick up the habit. I smack her hand and say "no, that hurts mommy", but then she just looks at me and smiles and does it again. Booger! Help! If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know! I want to do the right thing and I DON'T want my daughter to learn to be mean.
One of my parenting role-models is Sarah Cook. I read her blogs, I've watched her raise three beautiful daughters. She's a woman of faith and a great and supportive wife. They've had lots of challenges in their lives and faith, but she instills values and love to her girls. If I could be more like her. I want to spend more quality time with my daughter. I want to read more and pray more and show her how special she is in God's and my eyes. You are very encouraging to me, Sarah. Don't you dare stop blogging! I love you, girl!
Well, it is Kara's bedtime, so I better get going. God Bless!